i need a rest

osce is over. finally. bleargh.

i don't want to care about it. if i pass all 12 station, alhamdulillah. if i fail, well i would be super pissed and unhappy because all the questions asked are well within the limit of my knowledge, so i don't know what happen if i do fail BUT i will just have to make peace with it i guess. i THINK i can do them all but God knows how the result will turn out to be. for the mean time just have to wait and pray for the best.

anyways, i'm super bored with nothing else to do so might as well write what those 12 stations are all about.

i started at station 11 and the case is about a man complaining of breathlessness. diagnosed him with asthma but not sure if it is because all the test i requested ended up being unavailable or not yet ready.

station 12: a case about a man with hypopigmented patches on his skin and complain about numbness on the affected skin. definitely lepra. but i screwed up the skin and integument test because the question was confusing (do all SKIN test that support that the affected skin is numb). SKIN freaking TEST so i only do SKIN TEST LAH, if you asked me to check the nails and hair i would, okay.

station 1: rest

station 2: reflex test. a man was involved in an accident with bruises and cuts on his face. this is easy peasy.

station 3: test for abdomen. i think i did everything right here but the doctor is psychoing me with her headshakes and stuffs. i definitely definitely think she is trying to psycho me but i'm psychoproof so whatever, just wait for the results to come out.

station 4: septic and antiseptic routine before an operation procedure. went well except for the fact that my surgery mask kept on messing with my eyes and i was nearly taunt to tears. i think i'll pass this one because except for the mask mishap everything else was fine.

station 5: test for ascites and cirrhosis. went well except for the fact that the doctor was uncooperative (he remained silent throughout) and didn't give me any of the lab test that i requested. diagnosed the man with liver cirrhosis due to over consumption of alcohol.

station 6: vital signs and abdomen test. a man came with a fever since 5 days ago. i diagnosed him with dengue fever because his IgM dengue virus is positive.

station 7: ECG. mother of pearl i couldn't find the power button on the ECG machine. waste like 3 minutes babbling nonsense until i found it at the back of the machine. FISH!

station 8: anthropometry for babies, nutrition and imunisation. can-lah i guess. luckily i read about immunization the night before.

station 9: musculoskeletal. a lady came with a complaint about rigidity on her right fingers with mild fever. the mobility and range of motion of the affected fingers are restricted. diagnosed her with rheumatoid arthritis based on the predilection of the disease (fingers, small joints) EVENTHOUGH none of the test that i requested (rontgen photo, rheumatoid factors, athrocentesis) had been done to support my diagnosis. whatever, i'm confident it is rheumatoid arthritis.

station 10: vital signs, professionalism and empathy. a man came with a complain about his hypertension. i cheated on the pulse and heart rate because i took too much time taking the blood pressure. and only take the temperature 3 minutes before the time is up(supposedly 5 minutes prior to reading). it was supposed to be easy peasy but i don't know.

gah. whatever. i dont want to think about it. if i were the doctors evaluating i would give myself a straight pass because it's not like i don't know how to do it and some more, 10 minutes are too much of a constraint for me to do the best i can.

in the meantime i'll just pray that it will turn out fine because i don't want to be studying anything else during this holiday because HOLIDAY is HOLIDAY.

10 characteristics of a person that i hate

1. you are a liar.

2. you are a liar.

3. you are a hypocrite. you say one thing and totally act the opposite. bitch, please. be steadfast with your decision. if you like cake say you like cake. dont be like i hate cake because cake is the worst and it's expensive and i will never eat cake because it's bla bla bla what shit and what not but when somebody give you cake you'll be gobbling it up like a pig.

4. you are insensitive towards the feeling of others but you are so sensitive with yours. you say some of the bluntest thing i've ever heard a person could say to another, but when you received the same treatment you become super emotional. it's tiring dealing with you.

5. you are untrustworthy.

6. your jealousy is ridiculously surmount.

7. you are indecisive.

8. you are unappreciative.

9. you are a liar.

10. you are a liar.

burden

why do i have to be the bigger person? why do i have to apologize for when i did nothing wrong?

he came to me, borrowing my stuffs and never did i say, no you cannot, because you are irresponsible and i can't trust you taking care of my stuffs. scratch that, he didnt even ask. that right there, ladies and gentlemen, is a thief. and did i ever called him names he didn't like?

NEVER.

but when i asked for something as miniscule and insignificant as 5 minutes of his time, i was, in his own word, MENYUSAHKAN. me, being a burden to him? why you little unappreciative twat, should i mention all the wrongs you have done to me? and never once in any of those instances did i ever called you a burden eventhough your demands excuses are just downright ridiculous.

i never asked for people to say thank you, or give me flowers or send me a card whenever i helped them with something. you dont even have to be appreciative. heck, if you can't help me lessen my burden, whatever, i dont care. i'm totally fine with no one carrying my weight of a problem. but don't ever dare say that i am troublesome or act all high and mighty just because i was in a pinch.

if you don't want to help fine lah, just go away and leave me alone with my trouble to solve. i dont need you to add more pressure to my pre-existing one. dont call me, a burden, menyusahkan things like that if you dont want to help.

you know what, i am just going to stop being kind to you. whatever. you had it coming. i dont have to be the bigger person between us two to just forgive you when i did nothing wrong. why should i apologize anyway? i dont have to. last time i check, being nice is not

dont expect to trample all over me and not to get trampled all over back in turn.

gadgets

1. is laptop considered a gadget? if it is, my first ever gadget that i own would be my acer laptop that my father bought for me circa early 2008. the same laptop that i use to do my homework, play games and so many other ridiculous stuffs with up until i broke it into half in 2011. from then on, my white vaio has taken over the job for it. my old laptop run on vista which in case you don't know suck so much ass because it take forever to load until it was replaced by windows xp which still sucks but to a lesser degree. i still think i have a shitload of valuable files in the old laptop, mostly pictures but me being my lazy self i still haven't retrieve the hard disc. whatever.

2. my first handphone was a sony ericsson that i bought in 2008. then in 2010 i bought a nokia before i get my hand on my current blackberry torch that i loath, sort of. it's freaking heavy it weigh like a freaking brick in my pocket.

3. has owned a camera when i was in high school but not of the DSLR type. i dont understand the hype behind those bulky cameras but whatever, to each is his own.

4. my first and only game console was my gameboy advance which i lost at school.

5. so that is my bored ass reviews about gadgets i ever owned. read or freak off.

freeloader

i hate freeloaders. freeloaders are people who take advantage of you without being any helpful in return. in other words, a plain poisonous parasite.

gah.

some people's attitude are so irrelevant in this world. borrowing stuffs without permission, not keeping promises, having absolutely no sense of responsibility to the things they borrow or being kind enough to return the favor when i'm in need. stuffs like these make me cringe whenever i think about it. and the saddest, darnest thing above it all, i feel like i am the mean one when i start to do stuff to protect my interests from these people like keeping my stuffs somewhere secure where their sorry hands cannot reach.

urgh.

back at school, i have this friend who padlocked his sandals to prevent people from stealing them. yes, some of my friends are weirdoes with funny quirks, but whatever. at that time, i dont understand why he did that. it's so weird and everyone made fun of him because of that. but when i think about it now, there are some logic behind it.

some people are thieves. they steal stuffs. and being a thief, it's not likely that they will return their bounty. if hudud was erected in my school, many of the students would have lost their feets and legs i tell you.

and i thought, being around smart people with colorful portfolio like straight As in SPM or studying medicine, i dont have to deal with this petty freeloading crap anymore..

freeloaders truly pissed me off.

case in point, back then i have a friend. he is mean, but i can live with that. it's not like i enjoy talking to him anyways so i can tolerate his nasty remarks about my weight or appearance. the thing that i cannot stand about him is that, he likes to used my stuffs without my permission. you might thought that, what harm does borrowing your rm120 worth sandals would have on you? i'll be glad if it was just that, but it's not. he borrows my laptop, my perfumes, my body wash, my food, my powder, my deodorant. you know what picture the dictionary should put beside the word disgusting? two people sharing deodorant.

god. it was nasty. it's like buying stuffs for two without the other party chipping in. and borrowing stuffs without permission, doesnt that count as stealing? yes, i had been living with bandits for a solid 3 years. imagine that.

now i understand why cat lady decides to become cat lady. dealing with such humans are too much work and money spend.

p/s: no shit sherlock my story is incoherent, mainly because reading back and editing and putting some sense into what i wrote is too much of a hard work for my lazy self.