i like to consider myself as a nice person. i will usually smile at strangers even though i didn't know them. what more with people i know, like friends or acquaintances. i would greet them with pleasantries and bid them farewell every time i meet them. i'm not trying to act nice, this is what my parents have drilled into me as a kid, a trait i well of carry into my adulthood. it's common courtesy too.
it's my principle in life to treat people the way i want to be treated. love them like i want someone to love me.
i wouldn't mind if people wouldn't want to smile back at me if i smile to them, or show any sign of gratitude for whatever favor i've done for them. i don't have a problem with that. what i do have a problem with, is people who mocked my kindness.
now. most of you might not understand what i mean when i say i frickin hate people who mocked my kindness. these are an awful lot of people, who you have known or interacted with in the past, that you have no problem whatsoever with, that acted maliciously towards your act of kindness.
yesterday while i was at my campus basically walking through the hallway by myself, i bumped into an "acquaintance" of sort with his friend. i've known him from the camp last month, we were placed into the same house, so we basically live under one roof for 3 days. he was, okay-ish. he minded his own business, just like i minded my own the entirety of time we were there. i tried to act nice towards them, but it's really hard because i wasn't like most boys my age. i don't do manly stuffs like, play cards, or football, or talk about football or play football video games or swear or curse. i, admittedly, am a little bit of a softie and over-courteous. let's just leave that at that.
so yesterday, he and his friend were walking in opposite direction from me. we bumped and being the over-courteous creature that i am, smiled at him. and i can see it in his face, he didn't know how to react. whatever. but his friends burst out laughing when they saw me smiled at him.
i was like, i only try to be nice. okay. stop getting irrational thoughts. urghh.
dude please. you're not attractive. you need to take a long look inside a mirror and realize that when people smile at you, they don't mean to sleep with you or try to seduce you or whatever. not to say that your friends fared any better, they're more or less on the same scale as you are. i'm not saying that i would totally hit on you if you are any better looking, but man, you are delusional to think to even think about it.
also, any piece of respect i have for you is gone. GONE. i don't have to take shit for anyone especially from someone as delusional and disrespectful and bigotted as you. you don't deserve a spot on earth with such behavior.
i swear some people need to be enrolled in an attitude adjustment program.
Thursday, September 13, 2012
Friday, September 7, 2012
in chronological order
a lot of thing has happened since the last time i blog, and i mean A LOT. hence, i'm not gonna write a long ass post about it but instead put it in numerical points so that you can digest my story a little bit better. here goes in chronological order
1. WENT BACK TO MALAYSIA after the bloody OSCE's exam. it was exciting, fun and everything nice because i haven't been back in what feels like year (in actuality, months). while i was at home, the result for my 4th semester came out and i was very pleased about it because i managed to score a 3.52. the highest so far, okay. and to those who have insulted me for my dissatisfactory 2nd semester's result, YOU GUYS JUST GOT SERVED A FULL SERVING OF IN-YO-FACE! EAT IT!!!
2. FLEW BACK TO JAKARTA because i failed 3 of the OSCE's stations. bloody hell. had i passed all 12 stations in one go, my holiday will be extended to for a month or so but i didn't so, whatever. and it's not like anyone else fared any better okay. took the exam and can you believe it, my ECG machine broke down the second i tried to turn it off. luckily i didn't lose my cool and so the test went smoothly. except for the fact that i blanked out on the heart rate formula from anxiety that my ECG machine is pulling trick on me.
3. WENT BACK TO MALAYSIA a second time to celebrate hari raya with families and friends. it felt a little bit weird this time around on hari raya what with my first sister celebrating hers with her in laws and my second sister working on the first day of raya. and so the first day of raya was really only the 3 of us (me and my parents). but it was festive nonetheless, tradition was not broken eventhough it was really just the three of us; breakfast together early in the morning, the forgiveness ceremony and the usual open houses. and i just couldn't stop going back to the dapur for more ketupat servings okay, it was never delish during any raya time before this but maybe because it was homemade coconut wrapped ketupat this time, it was major superrrr! on the second day we went balik kampung to my late-grandfather's house to celebrate the festive with the rest of my distant relatives. more open houses and ketupat eating sessions before...
4. I FLEW BACK TO INDONESIA to attend the bloody camp organize by the bloody campus. it was meaningless and a waste of my time. it was fun regarding the fact that i got to go around the lake of this place the event was held but a part from that, nothing much. the execution of the event was weak and it was severely disorganized. 1) the event could be done in one day, but instead it was dragged into 3 days 2) it was meaningless because we were asked to fill up this book that contained super ridiculous questions which were rather psychological and irrelevant 3) it was held a week after raya, so the airplane tickets was crazy expensive. and it's not like we would be reimbursed of anything, it was all on our own tab. now now, i'm not being miserly or stingy but had they postpone or forwarded the events, everyone would not be so begrudgingly unhappy. to release some steam of disappointment..
5. I WENT TO JOGJAKARTA to relax and unwind with 3 other friends. jogja doesn't have that much to offer, and i am being bluntly honest here, unless you are into historical stories or architectures, like ME. while the visit to the parangtritis beach was mildly disappointing, largely in part due to 1) the lack of public transport willing to take passengers to and fro the beach area after 5 2) the beach that was not well maintained by visitors evidenced from the rubbishes disfiguring the beach scenic views 3) the wave was rather strong so swimming was strictly prohibited, the beach REDEEM itself by its breathtaking views every sunset and sunrise and other fun beach activities like horseback and ATV riding. had the chance to go to Mount Merapi which is famous for spewing hot lava and gases back in 2010 that devastated the majority part of jogja and killing lives. other places that i visited include Malioboro road, a shopping heaven, Universitas Gadjah Mada, a university so large it rivals our UM, Kraton, the palace of the Jogjakarta monarch, Vredeburg museum, which displays dioramas on Indonesia's history, including the aforementioned, Mount Merapi, Parangtritis Beach and the Borobudur and Prambanan Temple.
i guess that's it so far, maybe i'll write a super long ass post about my trip to jogja if i feel like it but till then earthlings!
p/s: i know i promised you that this wouldn't be a long ass post but i got carried away, but whatever, right?
1. WENT BACK TO MALAYSIA after the bloody OSCE's exam. it was exciting, fun and everything nice because i haven't been back in what feels like year (in actuality, months). while i was at home, the result for my 4th semester came out and i was very pleased about it because i managed to score a 3.52. the highest so far, okay. and to those who have insulted me for my dissatisfactory 2nd semester's result, YOU GUYS JUST GOT SERVED A FULL SERVING OF IN-YO-FACE! EAT IT!!!
2. FLEW BACK TO JAKARTA because i failed 3 of the OSCE's stations. bloody hell. had i passed all 12 stations in one go, my holiday will be extended to for a month or so but i didn't so, whatever. and it's not like anyone else fared any better okay. took the exam and can you believe it, my ECG machine broke down the second i tried to turn it off. luckily i didn't lose my cool and so the test went smoothly. except for the fact that i blanked out on the heart rate formula from anxiety that my ECG machine is pulling trick on me.
3. WENT BACK TO MALAYSIA a second time to celebrate hari raya with families and friends. it felt a little bit weird this time around on hari raya what with my first sister celebrating hers with her in laws and my second sister working on the first day of raya. and so the first day of raya was really only the 3 of us (me and my parents). but it was festive nonetheless, tradition was not broken eventhough it was really just the three of us; breakfast together early in the morning, the forgiveness ceremony and the usual open houses. and i just couldn't stop going back to the dapur for more ketupat servings okay, it was never delish during any raya time before this but maybe because it was homemade coconut wrapped ketupat this time, it was major superrrr! on the second day we went balik kampung to my late-grandfather's house to celebrate the festive with the rest of my distant relatives. more open houses and ketupat eating sessions before...
4. I FLEW BACK TO INDONESIA to attend the bloody camp organize by the bloody campus. it was meaningless and a waste of my time. it was fun regarding the fact that i got to go around the lake of this place the event was held but a part from that, nothing much. the execution of the event was weak and it was severely disorganized. 1) the event could be done in one day, but instead it was dragged into 3 days 2) it was meaningless because we were asked to fill up this book that contained super ridiculous questions which were rather psychological and irrelevant 3) it was held a week after raya, so the airplane tickets was crazy expensive. and it's not like we would be reimbursed of anything, it was all on our own tab. now now, i'm not being miserly or stingy but had they postpone or forwarded the events, everyone would not be so begrudgingly unhappy. to release some steam of disappointment..
5. I WENT TO JOGJAKARTA to relax and unwind with 3 other friends. jogja doesn't have that much to offer, and i am being bluntly honest here, unless you are into historical stories or architectures, like ME. while the visit to the parangtritis beach was mildly disappointing, largely in part due to 1) the lack of public transport willing to take passengers to and fro the beach area after 5 2) the beach that was not well maintained by visitors evidenced from the rubbishes disfiguring the beach scenic views 3) the wave was rather strong so swimming was strictly prohibited, the beach REDEEM itself by its breathtaking views every sunset and sunrise and other fun beach activities like horseback and ATV riding. had the chance to go to Mount Merapi which is famous for spewing hot lava and gases back in 2010 that devastated the majority part of jogja and killing lives. other places that i visited include Malioboro road, a shopping heaven, Universitas Gadjah Mada, a university so large it rivals our UM, Kraton, the palace of the Jogjakarta monarch, Vredeburg museum, which displays dioramas on Indonesia's history, including the aforementioned, Mount Merapi, Parangtritis Beach and the Borobudur and Prambanan Temple.
i guess that's it so far, maybe i'll write a super long ass post about my trip to jogja if i feel like it but till then earthlings!
p/s: i know i promised you that this wouldn't be a long ass post but i got carried away, but whatever, right?