an awful lot

i like to consider myself as a nice person. i will usually smile at strangers even though i didn't know them. what more with people i know, like friends or acquaintances. i would greet them with pleasantries and bid them farewell every time i meet them. i'm not trying to act nice, this is what my parents have drilled into me as a kid, a trait i well of carry into my adulthood. it's common courtesy too.

it's my principle in life to treat people the way i want to be treated. love them like i want someone to love me.

i wouldn't mind if people wouldn't want to smile back at me if i smile to them, or show any sign of gratitude for whatever favor i've done for them. i don't have a problem with that. what i do have a problem with, is people who mocked my kindness.

now. most of you might not understand what i mean when i say i frickin hate people who mocked my kindness. these are an awful lot of people, who you have known or interacted with in the past, that you have no problem whatsoever with, that acted maliciously towards your act of kindness.

yesterday while i was at my campus basically walking through the hallway by myself, i bumped into an "acquaintance" of sort with his friend. i've known him from the camp last month, we were placed into the same house, so we basically live under one roof for 3 days. he was, okay-ish. he minded his own business, just like i minded my own the entirety of time we were there. i tried to act nice towards them, but it's really hard because i wasn't like most boys my age. i don't do manly stuffs like, play cards, or football, or talk about football or play football video games or swear or curse. i, admittedly, am a little bit of a softie and over-courteous. let's just leave that at that.

so yesterday, he and his friend were walking in opposite direction from me. we bumped and being the over-courteous creature that i am, smiled at him. and i can see it in his face, he didn't know how to react. whatever. but his friends burst out laughing when they saw me smiled at him.

i was like, i only try to be nice. okay. stop getting irrational thoughts. urghh.

dude please. you're not attractive. you need to take a long look inside a mirror and realize that when people smile at you, they don't mean to sleep with you or try to seduce you or whatever. not to say that your friends fared any better, they're more or less on the same scale as you are. i'm not saying that i would totally hit on you if you are any better looking, but man, you are delusional to think to even think about it.

also, any piece of respect i have for you is gone. GONE. i don't have to take shit for anyone especially from someone as delusional and disrespectful and bigotted as you. you don't deserve a spot on earth with such behavior.

i swear some people need to be enrolled in an attitude adjustment program.